AFI “The Great Disappointment” Song Lyric

I can remember a place I used to go
Chrysanthemums of white, they seemed so beautiful
I can remember, I searched for the amaranth
I'd shut my eyes to see

Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones
I knew they would appear, saw not a single one
Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently
I'd make a wish and bleed

While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away

I can remember, dreamt them so vividly
Soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me
I can remember when I first realized
Dreams were the only place to see them

While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away, faith was wasting away, I was wasting away

I never, never wanted this, always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this, how could I have become?
I never, never wanted this, from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this, how could I have become?

I never, never wanted this, I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
I never, never wanted this, from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this

Inside a crumbling effigy
But you promised
So dies all innocence
But you promised me

While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away, faith was wasting away, I was wasting away